THE FORCED HONESTY/ASK ME ANYTHING MEME

[ceasetoexist]

THE RULES:
-Post with your character
-Others ask your characters questions (ICly or OOCly)
-Your character has to answer whatever they're asked completely honestly!
-That's it! Them's the rules!

Comments

[ironicoolly]

Back home? Or here.

[miasmajesty]

Both. Same guy.

[ironicoolly]

[Holy fuck.

Does he... push on? Does he want to hear the answer?]

What did he do.

[miasmajesty]

He failed. He ruined the lives of everyone he touched. And he can't tell them a god damn thing.

[ironicoolly]

[Well. Dirk could be talking about one of two people, to his knowledge.

Time to find out which.]

You're talking about yourself.

[miasmajesty]

Sure am. Much as I'd like to deny it, there's not many people as deserving of ire as I am.

[ironicoolly]

[His first instinct is to reply, "that's not true."

But he doesn't. He doesn't know enough about Dirk, anyway, and he doesn't think he ever really understood Bro, either.]

What makes you think that?

[miasmajesty]

In short? I fucked up.

Acted like I knew exactly what was going down, like I had some kind of insight into what was best for everyone. In reality it was just a means to bully and manipulate everyone into doing exactly what I wanted without much regard for their feelings, romantic or otherwise, and when it blew up in my fucking face I had the gall to be upset about it. I'm a horrible person. I've seen myself reflected back enough to know I'm just a shade off from a monster and it wouldn't take much to tip the scales. I have less heart than the machines I've built, no understanding of empathy or compassion, and of fucking course even here I can't escape it. I'm a Heart player with no real Heart.

All of that might have been salvagable if I was anywhere near as heroic as I made myself out to be. But I'm not. I'm just an asshole with a sword.

[ironicoolly]

[Holy shit. None of this information falls in line with his image of Bro at all, and he's at a complete loss for words.]

Do... your friends feel that way too?

[miasmajesty]

If they don't, they should.

[ironicoolly]

Don't say that.

You've been calling yourself heartless, saying you're worse than a machine, but just from listening to you I think it's obvious that's not true.

You care about them, don't you. You're tearing yourself up about your past mistakes. Nothing about that's screaming unfeeling robot to me.

[He's finally starting to see past his blind hero worship for the first time, realizing that his brother is a real person with real flaws and feelings. It's more than a little jarring.]

[miasmajesty]

It doesn't matter. It's too late to change anything.

[ironicoolly]

Do they know you feel this way?